Post by Moments In Life on Jul 31, 2021 3:35:48 GMT -5
It’s been crazy for me these last couple of months. I've been through a roller coaster of emotions and I don’t even know if I’ll ever get back to a happy place. I know people probably think I’m upset over my relationship ending and trust me that’s part of it but part of me also felt it was time for me to get away.
It became too toxic, the trust wasn’t there anymore and because I fell out of love with him and fell in love with someone else, I think it only made things worse.
Do I blame myself?
I do, but what can I do about it now? I can only sit back and hope for things to get better, not only personally but romantically because the shit I’m dealing with now is putting me in a position that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to handle.
Los Angeles, CA
#NakedBARLA
#YeshuaMixtapeRelease
7/5/21
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#NakedBARLA
#YeshuaMixtapeRelease
7/5/21
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The scene opens up inside of a packed #NakedBar, Keon is shown standing against the wall listening to the sounds of Summer Walker’s Playing Games blasts through the speakers but instead of the original version playing, the club version echoes throughout the stripclub. Keon sips on his drink, he feels a warm sensation throughout his body as the alcohol starts to kick in. Keon normally doesn’t hit the club alone but tonight he was on a mission, it had been a few months after him and Zuma broke up and just like any other man he had needs, it wasn’t his sexual needs that needed fulfilled but he needed something more. Keon pushes his way through the crowd and standing near the door he spots Yeshua Banner. His eyes light up when he notices Yeshua walking towards him and even though there were a bunch of people in the club, at this moment it felt like it was only Keon and Yeshua.
YESHUA BANNER: I didn’t think you we’re going to come.
Yeshua grabs ahold of Keon’s hand and pulls him closer to his body to the point where they are touching chest to chest. Keon relaxes all the muscles in his body as he feels the grip that Yeshua has around his waist.
KEON CAMP: Of course I was going to be here.
YESHUA BANNER: Are you ready to have fun tonight?
Keon nods, he smiles as he stares Yeshua up and down who is dressed in designer clothes from head to toe. Yeshua pulls a fat blunt from behind his ear and lights it up. He takes a couple puffs before pulling Keon in closer to him, the two lock lips and the smoke slowly flows out of the side of their mouths as the two keep kissing. Keon backs away from Yeshua blown away from the power that Yeshua has over him, it's not a bad thing though because at this point Keon is turned on in so many ways.
KEON CAMP: Aren’t you scared someone is going to see us? I mean we are in your neck of the woods, I don’t want Richie rolling up on me.
YESHUA BANNER: We around my people, no one is going to say shit. How about you focus on this moment right now and leave the rest of shit to me to worry about.
KEON CAMP: I know, it just feels weird because everyone is pointing at me like I’m the bad guy when they don’t know you and Rich-
Yeshua places his finger against Keon’s mouth.
YESHUA BANNER: Don’t worry about him tonight, it's just me and you right now.
The song switches in the club, Wockesha by MoneybagYo plays through the speakers now, Yeshua grabs a handful of Keon’s ass and Keon starts grinding on Yeshua, grinding to the beat of the song. Yehusa grabs ahold of Keon’s hand and leads him to Kylie’s office, Kylie who is standing on the side smiles as she watches Yeshua and Keon walk into her office. The two close the door behind them and Yeshua lifts Keon up on Kylie’s table spreading his legs open and leans into him.
KEON CAMP: What if Kylie gets mad?
YESHUA BANNER: She is not trippin, Kylie my people and I’m sure she gets it on with Sam all the time back here, don’t worry we don’t gotta go all the way, we got the crib for that. I just wanted you alone for sometime.
Keon smiles, he grips on Yeshua shirt and pulls him closer to his body. Keon bites his lower lips as he feels Yeshua's hand sliding in his pants and gripping his bare ass.
YESHUA BANNER: I’m ready to get in that thang, right fucking now.
Keon giggles, the horniness is really setting it now. Keon could feel the blood rushing to his dick and he could definitely feel Yeshua’s pressed up against his leg. Keon moves his hand down Yeshua’s pants leg and grabs ahold of the tip, squeezing it hard.
KEON CAMP: Damn, ya shit brick.
YESHUA BANNER: Because I’m ready to fuck.
Keon bites his lip again, the thought of Yeshua being inside of him at this moment turned him all the way on. Keon starts to unzip Yeshua pants and the scene fades to black.
YESHUA BANNER: I didn’t think you we’re going to come.
Yeshua grabs ahold of Keon’s hand and pulls him closer to his body to the point where they are touching chest to chest. Keon relaxes all the muscles in his body as he feels the grip that Yeshua has around his waist.
KEON CAMP: Of course I was going to be here.
YESHUA BANNER: Are you ready to have fun tonight?
Keon nods, he smiles as he stares Yeshua up and down who is dressed in designer clothes from head to toe. Yeshua pulls a fat blunt from behind his ear and lights it up. He takes a couple puffs before pulling Keon in closer to him, the two lock lips and the smoke slowly flows out of the side of their mouths as the two keep kissing. Keon backs away from Yeshua blown away from the power that Yeshua has over him, it's not a bad thing though because at this point Keon is turned on in so many ways.
KEON CAMP: Aren’t you scared someone is going to see us? I mean we are in your neck of the woods, I don’t want Richie rolling up on me.
YESHUA BANNER: We around my people, no one is going to say shit. How about you focus on this moment right now and leave the rest of shit to me to worry about.
KEON CAMP: I know, it just feels weird because everyone is pointing at me like I’m the bad guy when they don’t know you and Rich-
Yeshua places his finger against Keon’s mouth.
YESHUA BANNER: Don’t worry about him tonight, it's just me and you right now.
The song switches in the club, Wockesha by MoneybagYo plays through the speakers now, Yeshua grabs a handful of Keon’s ass and Keon starts grinding on Yeshua, grinding to the beat of the song. Yehusa grabs ahold of Keon’s hand and leads him to Kylie’s office, Kylie who is standing on the side smiles as she watches Yeshua and Keon walk into her office. The two close the door behind them and Yeshua lifts Keon up on Kylie’s table spreading his legs open and leans into him.
KEON CAMP: What if Kylie gets mad?
YESHUA BANNER: She is not trippin, Kylie my people and I’m sure she gets it on with Sam all the time back here, don’t worry we don’t gotta go all the way, we got the crib for that. I just wanted you alone for sometime.
Keon smiles, he grips on Yeshua shirt and pulls him closer to his body. Keon bites his lower lips as he feels Yeshua's hand sliding in his pants and gripping his bare ass.
YESHUA BANNER: I’m ready to get in that thang, right fucking now.
Keon giggles, the horniness is really setting it now. Keon could feel the blood rushing to his dick and he could definitely feel Yeshua’s pressed up against his leg. Keon moves his hand down Yeshua’s pants leg and grabs ahold of the tip, squeezing it hard.
KEON CAMP: Damn, ya shit brick.
YESHUA BANNER: Because I’m ready to fuck.
Keon bites his lip again, the thought of Yeshua being inside of him at this moment turned him all the way on. Keon starts to unzip Yeshua pants and the scene fades to black.
New York, NY
On the set Filming for #theLIFENY
7/10/21
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On the set Filming for #theLIFENY
7/10/21
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KEON CAMP: I can’t believe you invited him here, why the fuck are you being so messy?
The scene opens up with Keon and A’Leah filming a scene for the show #theLIFENY, Keon is shown in a screaming match with A’Leah who is standing there not saying anything. Keon turns and looks at the producers.
KEON CAMP: I’m not doing this right now, I swear all you guys want drama in my life.
The producers try to stop Keon from snatching his mic off but it's too late, Keon snatches his mic and tosses it to the ground. A’Leah reaches for Keon’s arm but Keon snatches it away and starts walking off in the other direction.
KEON CAMP: Fuck this! Fuck this!
A’Leah follows behind Keon and the two walk towards Keon’s car that is parked on the side street. Keon turns and looks at A’Leah with a blank expression on his face.
KEON CAMP: Why the fuck would you invite him here? I don’t want to talk to him.
A'LEAH JORDAN: Keon, the boy thinks you are having an affair with his husband. He wants to talk to you and set the record straight.
KEON CAMP: So maybe he should talk to his fucking husband and not me. How do you even know him? Like you are supposed to be my friend Leah!
A'LEAH JORDAN: I’m worried about you Key, and I think this was the only way to open your eyes to show you that you aren’t living right, this is wrong Key and I know this isn’t the type of person you are. I just want you to sit down and hear him out, that’s all.
Keon shakes his head “No”. He opens his car door and hops inside, Keon turns and looks at A’Leah standing outside his window and he starts his ignition by pushing the button. A’Leah knocks on the window but Keon ignores her knocks and he drives off leaving her standing alone. A’Leah walks back over to the producers and they sit and chat for a bit before a blue tesla pulls up to them, inside the tesla sits Richie Rich and the scene fades to black.
The scene opens up with Keon and A’Leah filming a scene for the show #theLIFENY, Keon is shown in a screaming match with A’Leah who is standing there not saying anything. Keon turns and looks at the producers.
KEON CAMP: I’m not doing this right now, I swear all you guys want drama in my life.
The producers try to stop Keon from snatching his mic off but it's too late, Keon snatches his mic and tosses it to the ground. A’Leah reaches for Keon’s arm but Keon snatches it away and starts walking off in the other direction.
KEON CAMP: Fuck this! Fuck this!
A’Leah follows behind Keon and the two walk towards Keon’s car that is parked on the side street. Keon turns and looks at A’Leah with a blank expression on his face.
KEON CAMP: Why the fuck would you invite him here? I don’t want to talk to him.
A'LEAH JORDAN: Keon, the boy thinks you are having an affair with his husband. He wants to talk to you and set the record straight.
KEON CAMP: So maybe he should talk to his fucking husband and not me. How do you even know him? Like you are supposed to be my friend Leah!
A'LEAH JORDAN: I’m worried about you Key, and I think this was the only way to open your eyes to show you that you aren’t living right, this is wrong Key and I know this isn’t the type of person you are. I just want you to sit down and hear him out, that’s all.
Keon shakes his head “No”. He opens his car door and hops inside, Keon turns and looks at A’Leah standing outside his window and he starts his ignition by pushing the button. A’Leah knocks on the window but Keon ignores her knocks and he drives off leaving her standing alone. A’Leah walks back over to the producers and they sit and chat for a bit before a blue tesla pulls up to them, inside the tesla sits Richie Rich and the scene fades to black.
Everyone thinks I don’t know what I’m getting myself into but in reality I do, I just don’t care what people think about the situation. I haven’t openly talked about my dating life and I really don’t understand why people are so concerned about who is laying in my bed.
But I guess after my breakup with Zuma, my sex life became a hot topic like I was appearing on the bachelor or something. I really don’t like the exposure and I know being on this show only forced me into the spotlight but damn can I get some sort of privacy.
And being on #theLIFENY doesn’t help at all, but what can I do? I signed up for this bullshit and I have to complete my job or that’ll be a breach of contract and it seems like the only way I can express my true feelings is through writing because no one is listening to me. The only person that really supports my situation is Amonte but of course he’s only happy I’m not with my ex so it probably wouldn’t matter who I was linked to. All I did know was I wasn’t about to fight this rumor for too long, it was draining and I needed Yeshua to make up his mind and fast.
Filming today was stressful and even though I didn’t finish my scene I wasn’t about to stand face to face with the mans husband, I know this looks bad because I know that Yeshua is married and I’m still engaging in some sort of relationship with him but I don’t know how else to go about this situation, I really think I’m in love.
Yes I finally said, in love.
I guess I’ll figure it out one day and when that time comes it’ll be the best decision I could have possibly made, well that’s how I see it.
But I guess after my breakup with Zuma, my sex life became a hot topic like I was appearing on the bachelor or something. I really don’t like the exposure and I know being on this show only forced me into the spotlight but damn can I get some sort of privacy.
And being on #theLIFENY doesn’t help at all, but what can I do? I signed up for this bullshit and I have to complete my job or that’ll be a breach of contract and it seems like the only way I can express my true feelings is through writing because no one is listening to me. The only person that really supports my situation is Amonte but of course he’s only happy I’m not with my ex so it probably wouldn’t matter who I was linked to. All I did know was I wasn’t about to fight this rumor for too long, it was draining and I needed Yeshua to make up his mind and fast.
Filming today was stressful and even though I didn’t finish my scene I wasn’t about to stand face to face with the mans husband, I know this looks bad because I know that Yeshua is married and I’m still engaging in some sort of relationship with him but I don’t know how else to go about this situation, I really think I’m in love.
Yes I finally said, in love.
I guess I’ll figure it out one day and when that time comes it’ll be the best decision I could have possibly made, well that’s how I see it.
Hollywood, CA
#PureNightclub
7/30/21
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#PureNightclub
7/30/21
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The scene opens up inside of Pure Nightclub where Keon is scheduled to host a pajama party along with Adyn Richie, the two are shown in VIP toasting their drinks and having a fun time. Keon grabs another bottle of hennessy and pops the top off, wearing nothing but a pair of gothika boxer briefs and a chain, Keon pours some of the liquor down his throat and onto his chest.
ADYN RICHIE: Your extra lit tonight.
KEON CAMP: I haven’t been this happy in a long ass time, I’m trying to have fucking fun tonight.
The party is live and majority of the club is dancing their ass off, some fully clothed while others with barely any clothes on not giving a fuck what anyone has to say. Keon mingles with some of the patrons of the club, some of whom are fans. Keon takes a couple pictures before standing on the couch.
ADYN RICHIE: Oh my brother and his husband are in the building, I’m going to invite them over.
Keon’s eyes met with Yeshua and you can tell by the look on Yeshua’s face that he wasn’t happy to be there with Richie Rich. Adyn exits out the VIP section and walks over to Yeshua and his brother Richie Rich and greets them a hug, he leads them over to the VIP section where Keon is sitting with an annoyed expression on his face.
ADYN RICHIE: Hey Keon, I don’t think you’ve met my brother Richie.
Before Keon could respond, Richie Rich interrupts.
RICHIE RICH: Nah he knows me very well or should I say he knows my husband very well.
Richie Rich looks at Yeshua who just rolls his eyes.
ADYN RICHIE: Wait, what’s going on here?
RICHIE RICH: Adyn you can’t be that oblivious to what is going on, I know you see the stories in the blog.
ADYN RICHIE: Yeah I have but I don’t pay attention to them, the blogs say I’m out here selling ass and we both know that isn’t true so I didn’t take those stories seriously.
Adyn looks over at Keon who isn’t saying a word.
ADYN RICHIE: So is there any truth to what is being said in the blogs?
RICHIE RICH: He won’t admit it, I tried to sit down with him a few days ago to talk it out and he ran off throwing a fit. But I came here tonight knowing that he would be here. I also wanted to let him know that Yeshua and I are trying to fix our relationship and with that being said I think you should stop texting my husband.
KEON CAMP: Or maybe you should tell your husband to stop texting me.
Adyn’s mouth drops along with Richie Rich’s, Keon reaches for his phone and pulls up the Uber app.
KEON CAMP: What I won’t do is sit here and be ambushed by y’all.
Keon looks up at Yeshua.
KEON CAMP: And it sucks that you are standing there not saying a word.
YESHUA BANNER: I already told y’all I’m not about this drama shit, we are in a club and you think I want to waste time on this bullshit when we could be having fun and drinking. I didn’t even want to come here but Richie begged me to be here so here I am.
RICHIE RICH: I’m not sitting here partying with this trash and Adyn you shouldn’t either.
Adyn looks at his brother and then at Keon.
ADYN RICHIE: Look I’ll fight him if you want me to bro, just say the word. I didn’t know this dude was really fucking around with Yeshua, I should be fighting your ass too.
Adyn balls his fist up looking at both Yeshua and Keon.
YESHUA BANNER: You not righting anyone in this bitch, Richie over here acting like he didn’t know what was going on when we both mutually agreed to see other people and try and figure out what we were doing with our marriage, the shit just not working.
Richie Rich turns and looks at Yeshua with a confused look, Keon just sits there and tries not to laugh about the situation but the alcohol is preventing him from caring.
RICHIE RICH: What the fuck is funny Keon? You think ruining a relationship is funny? That shit is whack.
KEON CAMP: I can’t ruin something that was already broken.
Before Richie Rich could respond, Adyn flies across the table leaping onto Keon and the fists are being thrown, both Keon and Adyn roll around throwing punches at each other, some of the punches are connecting while the other ones are hitting random objects which include the table and some of the chairs. Yeshua stands there for a second before climbing between the two!
YESHUA BANNER: Are y’all fucking kidding me? Now y’all giving the blogs something more to talk about, chill the fuck out.
KEON CAMP: Get your fucking people Yeshua.
Richie Rich tries to lunge at Keon but Yeshua grabs him by the shirt and pulls him back towards his direction.
RICHIE RICH: ARE YOU REALLY TRYING TO HELP THIS BOY?
Richie Rich tries to force himself out of Yeshua’s grip but struggles. Keon grabs his items and starts to exit the VIP section but Adyn jumps in his way.
ADYN RICHIE: Nah you're not going anywhere bro, we need to hand this shit tonight!
Keon tries to brush past Adyn but Adyn pushes Keon back forcing him to fall onto the long sofa couch in the VIP section. Finally security rushes over to the section and starts taking control of the situation, Keon starts to head towards the exit and Yeshua follows behind him, shocking both Adyn and Richie Rich.
YESHUA BANNER: Yo Key wait up.
Keon stops before he leaves the club, he turns and looks at Yeshua with a tear forming in his eye. He knew the night couldn’t get any worse and he was furious at what just went down.
YESHUA BANNER: I’m coming with you.
Keon wanted to tell Yeshua no, he wanted to tell Yeshua he was the reason why he just jumped in the club, but even though he was mad at Yeshua, he still wanted him in his bed next to him. Yeshua turns and looks at Richie Rich and Adyn who are still being held back by security, he shakes his head in disgust and he grabs ahold of Keon by the waist and the two exit the club, the scene fades to black.
ADYN RICHIE: Your extra lit tonight.
KEON CAMP: I haven’t been this happy in a long ass time, I’m trying to have fucking fun tonight.
The party is live and majority of the club is dancing their ass off, some fully clothed while others with barely any clothes on not giving a fuck what anyone has to say. Keon mingles with some of the patrons of the club, some of whom are fans. Keon takes a couple pictures before standing on the couch.
ADYN RICHIE: Oh my brother and his husband are in the building, I’m going to invite them over.
Keon’s eyes met with Yeshua and you can tell by the look on Yeshua’s face that he wasn’t happy to be there with Richie Rich. Adyn exits out the VIP section and walks over to Yeshua and his brother Richie Rich and greets them a hug, he leads them over to the VIP section where Keon is sitting with an annoyed expression on his face.
ADYN RICHIE: Hey Keon, I don’t think you’ve met my brother Richie.
Before Keon could respond, Richie Rich interrupts.
RICHIE RICH: Nah he knows me very well or should I say he knows my husband very well.
Richie Rich looks at Yeshua who just rolls his eyes.
ADYN RICHIE: Wait, what’s going on here?
RICHIE RICH: Adyn you can’t be that oblivious to what is going on, I know you see the stories in the blog.
ADYN RICHIE: Yeah I have but I don’t pay attention to them, the blogs say I’m out here selling ass and we both know that isn’t true so I didn’t take those stories seriously.
Adyn looks over at Keon who isn’t saying a word.
ADYN RICHIE: So is there any truth to what is being said in the blogs?
RICHIE RICH: He won’t admit it, I tried to sit down with him a few days ago to talk it out and he ran off throwing a fit. But I came here tonight knowing that he would be here. I also wanted to let him know that Yeshua and I are trying to fix our relationship and with that being said I think you should stop texting my husband.
KEON CAMP: Or maybe you should tell your husband to stop texting me.
Adyn’s mouth drops along with Richie Rich’s, Keon reaches for his phone and pulls up the Uber app.
KEON CAMP: What I won’t do is sit here and be ambushed by y’all.
Keon looks up at Yeshua.
KEON CAMP: And it sucks that you are standing there not saying a word.
YESHUA BANNER: I already told y’all I’m not about this drama shit, we are in a club and you think I want to waste time on this bullshit when we could be having fun and drinking. I didn’t even want to come here but Richie begged me to be here so here I am.
RICHIE RICH: I’m not sitting here partying with this trash and Adyn you shouldn’t either.
Adyn looks at his brother and then at Keon.
ADYN RICHIE: Look I’ll fight him if you want me to bro, just say the word. I didn’t know this dude was really fucking around with Yeshua, I should be fighting your ass too.
Adyn balls his fist up looking at both Yeshua and Keon.
YESHUA BANNER: You not righting anyone in this bitch, Richie over here acting like he didn’t know what was going on when we both mutually agreed to see other people and try and figure out what we were doing with our marriage, the shit just not working.
Richie Rich turns and looks at Yeshua with a confused look, Keon just sits there and tries not to laugh about the situation but the alcohol is preventing him from caring.
RICHIE RICH: What the fuck is funny Keon? You think ruining a relationship is funny? That shit is whack.
KEON CAMP: I can’t ruin something that was already broken.
Before Richie Rich could respond, Adyn flies across the table leaping onto Keon and the fists are being thrown, both Keon and Adyn roll around throwing punches at each other, some of the punches are connecting while the other ones are hitting random objects which include the table and some of the chairs. Yeshua stands there for a second before climbing between the two!
YESHUA BANNER: Are y’all fucking kidding me? Now y’all giving the blogs something more to talk about, chill the fuck out.
KEON CAMP: Get your fucking people Yeshua.
Richie Rich tries to lunge at Keon but Yeshua grabs him by the shirt and pulls him back towards his direction.
RICHIE RICH: ARE YOU REALLY TRYING TO HELP THIS BOY?
Richie Rich tries to force himself out of Yeshua’s grip but struggles. Keon grabs his items and starts to exit the VIP section but Adyn jumps in his way.
ADYN RICHIE: Nah you're not going anywhere bro, we need to hand this shit tonight!
Keon tries to brush past Adyn but Adyn pushes Keon back forcing him to fall onto the long sofa couch in the VIP section. Finally security rushes over to the section and starts taking control of the situation, Keon starts to head towards the exit and Yeshua follows behind him, shocking both Adyn and Richie Rich.
YESHUA BANNER: Yo Key wait up.
Keon stops before he leaves the club, he turns and looks at Yeshua with a tear forming in his eye. He knew the night couldn’t get any worse and he was furious at what just went down.
YESHUA BANNER: I’m coming with you.
Keon wanted to tell Yeshua no, he wanted to tell Yeshua he was the reason why he just jumped in the club, but even though he was mad at Yeshua, he still wanted him in his bed next to him. Yeshua turns and looks at Richie Rich and Adyn who are still being held back by security, he shakes his head in disgust and he grabs ahold of Keon by the waist and the two exit the club, the scene fades to black.