#theLIFEATL Presents: Stories of a Trap Ni**a Vol. 1w/ TRAPP
Sept 18, 2017 1:25:00 GMT -5
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Post by Moments In Life on Sept 18, 2017 1:25:00 GMT -5
September 14th, 2017
12:45 AM
Philadelphia, PA
D. Brickz House
Off-Camera
12:45 AM
Philadelphia, PA
D. Brickz House
Off-Camera
Shit was wild, things weren't working out with Jalen and I just needed to get away. Philly was home, that's where I grew up and that's where I spent most of my life. The only thing about Philly is when I come home, I always tend to go back to my old ways. That's just something I can't change right now, I don't think it was something I ever wanted to change.
This whole gay shit was new to me, being opened with my shit was something I wasn't use to. Don't get me wrong I wasn't out in these streets screaming it loud and proud but out of respect of Jalen who I was becoming serious with. I did it for him.
My family seem cool with it, Dad was a little disappointed and my Mom was shocked, but they respected the kid and knew it was already difficult for me.
Since I gave up my place in Philly after I moved to Atlanta, my cousin D. Brickz was letting me crash at his spot. Shit I was grateful because I wasn't trying to kick out any money in some hotel and forreal all my hoes was mad at me when they found out I was fucking dudes so a nigga can't win for nothing.
This whole gay shit was new to me, being opened with my shit was something I wasn't use to. Don't get me wrong I wasn't out in these streets screaming it loud and proud but out of respect of Jalen who I was becoming serious with. I did it for him.
My family seem cool with it, Dad was a little disappointed and my Mom was shocked, but they respected the kid and knew it was already difficult for me.
Since I gave up my place in Philly after I moved to Atlanta, my cousin D. Brickz was letting me crash at his spot. Shit I was grateful because I wasn't trying to kick out any money in some hotel and forreal all my hoes was mad at me when they found out I was fucking dudes so a nigga can't win for nothing.
The scene opens up in Philly, standing outside on the block Trapp is shown leaning against one of the lamp poles, he pulls his phone up noticing a text from Jalen he ignores it placing the phone back in his pocket. He looks up and notices his brother Brickz walking towards him.
TRAPP: Whats good G? Anything popping down the street?
BRICKZ: Nah it's dry as fuck down there, just the regular junkies. I told you since them new niggas hit the block work been slow, plus the police been heavy out in these streets especially since Shoota got shot.
TRAPP: That shit hurt about Shoota, glad he pulled through though because I just knew we was about to bury another homie.
BRICKZ: Yea he’ll be out the hospital in a few days, I’m going to let him stay with me until shit die down. But you here in Philly back on these streets, I guess that wrestling and model shit didn't work out.
TRAPP: But on some real shit, I won't give up. That shit a lot of work but I'm doing it nigga forreal. I just needed some extra guap and I know these streets, I wasn't trying to get caught up in no shit out in Atlanta.
BRICKZ: I can't believe you out Atlanta playing house with a faggot G. I can't believe my own flesh and blood into that shit. Do you know how mad I was at you G?
TRAPP: Understand if I had a choice not to feel this way, then I wouldn't. G shit!
BRICKZ: Yea aight, we still going to talk about it, but let's get this money. I'm going to hit the other corner and see what pops off down there.
Trapp nods as he watches his cousin walk off towards another block. Trapp stands there pulling out a half smoked blunt from his pocket and lights it up as the scene fades to black.
TRAPP: Whats good G? Anything popping down the street?
BRICKZ: Nah it's dry as fuck down there, just the regular junkies. I told you since them new niggas hit the block work been slow, plus the police been heavy out in these streets especially since Shoota got shot.
TRAPP: That shit hurt about Shoota, glad he pulled through though because I just knew we was about to bury another homie.
BRICKZ: Yea he’ll be out the hospital in a few days, I’m going to let him stay with me until shit die down. But you here in Philly back on these streets, I guess that wrestling and model shit didn't work out.
TRAPP: But on some real shit, I won't give up. That shit a lot of work but I'm doing it nigga forreal. I just needed some extra guap and I know these streets, I wasn't trying to get caught up in no shit out in Atlanta.
BRICKZ: I can't believe you out Atlanta playing house with a faggot G. I can't believe my own flesh and blood into that shit. Do you know how mad I was at you G?
TRAPP: Understand if I had a choice not to feel this way, then I wouldn't. G shit!
BRICKZ: Yea aight, we still going to talk about it, but let's get this money. I'm going to hit the other corner and see what pops off down there.
Trapp nods as he watches his cousin walk off towards another block. Trapp stands there pulling out a half smoked blunt from his pocket and lights it up as the scene fades to black.
September 15th, 2017
4:45PM
Philadelphia, PA
Lynx Studios
On-Camera
4:45PM
Philadelphia, PA
Lynx Studios
On-Camera
I've been avoiding Jalen’s calls this whole time I've been in Philly. I just didn't have time for the drama and then I got his jump off coming at me via social media, I wasn't use to this type of shit. I usually deal with shit like this the street way,if someone yapping they gums then you pull up.
And handle business.
But this gay lifestyle must be different, maybe niggas like all that attention, all that extra shit. The only place I felt like I could clear my head and release some stress was the studio. I've been playing with the idea of becoming an artist, but I didn't know how serious I was until a few days ago. I feel like you can talk about so much through music that it made sense for me to pick up the pen.
I took a break from training to become a wrestler just so I could focus on the music, now I wasn't giving up my dream of being in the ring but I did want to open my life up to other possibilities.
One of my exes Jasmine hit me up just to see how I was doing. Jasmine and I had this mutual respect for each other, yes we use to smash but she understood what I was going through because of her attraction to females. So I knew I could talk to her about anything and she would keep it real with me.
And handle business.
But this gay lifestyle must be different, maybe niggas like all that attention, all that extra shit. The only place I felt like I could clear my head and release some stress was the studio. I've been playing with the idea of becoming an artist, but I didn't know how serious I was until a few days ago. I feel like you can talk about so much through music that it made sense for me to pick up the pen.
I took a break from training to become a wrestler just so I could focus on the music, now I wasn't giving up my dream of being in the ring but I did want to open my life up to other possibilities.
One of my exes Jasmine hit me up just to see how I was doing. Jasmine and I had this mutual respect for each other, yes we use to smash but she understood what I was going through because of her attraction to females. So I knew I could talk to her about anything and she would keep it real with me.
The scene opens up inside Lynx Studios, Trapp just finished laying down some vocals on a track he just finished working on. He walks out of the booth and meets up with Jasmine who is sitting on the couch.
JASMINE: That shit was dope, even though it's about a nigga, I still fuck with it. But I still liked it though. What are you trying to do though? Is it music or wrestling?
TRAPP: I think I could do both if I really worked hard at it. I've been in the gym working with this dude Kenny.
JASMINE: Is these one of your fake friends from the show?
TRAPP: Ha you funny, but it's a dude I met through social media, he's a trainer so he's been helping me with some shit. A former wrestler too so I'm seeing how it works out but this shit is tough.
JASMINE: Well you know I have to ask, but have you talked to your mom?
TRAPP:I saw her when I first got to Philly, but she's been MIA since so I'm not sweating it.
Everyone knew my mom was a touchy subject, it's so much pain and hurt that comes from that whole situation but it's my mother I could never be mad at her. If it wasn't for her then I wouldn't be on this earth right now.
But the pain my mother goes through is far more worst than my own. Being addicted to drugs and alcohol wasn't the route yo take in life, unfortunately for her that was the only route she knew.
JASMINE: It'll get better, she seems like she was coming around a lot more lately, showing up at events and what not. These streets are hard Trapp, you already know that though.
TRAPP: That's why I wanted a different life, but I wanted it for all of us. No matter what I will get her the help she needs.
JASMINE: I mean that's your mother so it makes sense, but remember you've done more than enough, I remember the rehab stints and the amount of money you spent on her, you were in these streets trappin day in and day out.
TRAPP: But that shit wasn't enough.
JASMINE: It should have been enough, I get you wanted to move to try and better yourself but I think Jalen played a part in that too, maybe Atlanta wasn't the right move for you, I think you still have unfinished business here and then when you told me that you were signing up for that reality show shit, I just knew you were jumping in too fast.
Jasmine shakes her head.
JASMINE: The hood was disappointed in you,i was too.
TRAPP: But I'm not living for the hood, I’m living for me.
JASMINE: I just think you should think about all these moves you making baby boy, I'm only trying to look out for you.
I don't know where all this was coming from, it was her idea to even go to Atlanta, she was the one that told me to take the risk but now all of a sudden I was making too many moves. At the end of the day I didn't regret my decision to move, I did that shit because I wanted to focus on my life and stop worrying about everyone else's.
Shit you would have thought I was making a million dollars a year the way I was taking care of folks, but the only money I was getting was drug money.
And that shit was just enough.
JASMINE: I don't want to take away the fact that you are working on your dreams but we just miss you out here and when you finally left that shit hit hard.
Jasmine pauses.
JASMINE: I definitely miss you.
TRAPP: The feeling is mutual, but I did this for me and no one else. But as for you thinking Jalen played a part, he kind of did, but understand I was fucking with that nigga since high school. It was history and when I finally came to terms with how I was feeling, I mean he was there.
JASMINE: I just feel like what we had must have been a lie, I never saw anything with you two. I kind of suspected Jalen but I never thought you would be too, I remember hearing rumors but I always ignored them because I knew what we had.
TRAPP: I don't think you can even do this right now Jazz, you was fucking with females on the side and I was cool with that. We was young and yea you still got a special place in my heart but that's not what I want. We've already talked about this so I don't understand why we're even discussing it right now.
JASMINE: I guess because my feelings really got the best of me after you left. No one really expected you to just up leave.
TRAPP: And I've apologize to you many times, I don't know what else to do.
JASMINE: Just forget I brought it up, I should be going anyway. I have to get Leo from my mother's house, so I guess i'll catch you around when I can.
TRAPP: I would like to see Leo if I can, I'm sure he would like to see me.
JASMINE: I mean that's fine, I just hate for him to get his hopes up thinking you're staying for good when in reality you're going back to ATL.
TRAPP: Now you're being difficult.
JASMINE: I have to go.
Jasmine grabs her purse off the table and walks out of the studio leaving Trapp alone, the scene fades to black.
JASMINE: That shit was dope, even though it's about a nigga, I still fuck with it. But I still liked it though. What are you trying to do though? Is it music or wrestling?
TRAPP: I think I could do both if I really worked hard at it. I've been in the gym working with this dude Kenny.
JASMINE: Is these one of your fake friends from the show?
TRAPP: Ha you funny, but it's a dude I met through social media, he's a trainer so he's been helping me with some shit. A former wrestler too so I'm seeing how it works out but this shit is tough.
JASMINE: Well you know I have to ask, but have you talked to your mom?
TRAPP:I saw her when I first got to Philly, but she's been MIA since so I'm not sweating it.
Everyone knew my mom was a touchy subject, it's so much pain and hurt that comes from that whole situation but it's my mother I could never be mad at her. If it wasn't for her then I wouldn't be on this earth right now.
But the pain my mother goes through is far more worst than my own. Being addicted to drugs and alcohol wasn't the route yo take in life, unfortunately for her that was the only route she knew.
JASMINE: It'll get better, she seems like she was coming around a lot more lately, showing up at events and what not. These streets are hard Trapp, you already know that though.
TRAPP: That's why I wanted a different life, but I wanted it for all of us. No matter what I will get her the help she needs.
JASMINE: I mean that's your mother so it makes sense, but remember you've done more than enough, I remember the rehab stints and the amount of money you spent on her, you were in these streets trappin day in and day out.
TRAPP: But that shit wasn't enough.
JASMINE: It should have been enough, I get you wanted to move to try and better yourself but I think Jalen played a part in that too, maybe Atlanta wasn't the right move for you, I think you still have unfinished business here and then when you told me that you were signing up for that reality show shit, I just knew you were jumping in too fast.
Jasmine shakes her head.
JASMINE: The hood was disappointed in you,i was too.
TRAPP: But I'm not living for the hood, I’m living for me.
JASMINE: I just think you should think about all these moves you making baby boy, I'm only trying to look out for you.
I don't know where all this was coming from, it was her idea to even go to Atlanta, she was the one that told me to take the risk but now all of a sudden I was making too many moves. At the end of the day I didn't regret my decision to move, I did that shit because I wanted to focus on my life and stop worrying about everyone else's.
Shit you would have thought I was making a million dollars a year the way I was taking care of folks, but the only money I was getting was drug money.
And that shit was just enough.
JASMINE: I don't want to take away the fact that you are working on your dreams but we just miss you out here and when you finally left that shit hit hard.
Jasmine pauses.
JASMINE: I definitely miss you.
TRAPP: The feeling is mutual, but I did this for me and no one else. But as for you thinking Jalen played a part, he kind of did, but understand I was fucking with that nigga since high school. It was history and when I finally came to terms with how I was feeling, I mean he was there.
JASMINE: I just feel like what we had must have been a lie, I never saw anything with you two. I kind of suspected Jalen but I never thought you would be too, I remember hearing rumors but I always ignored them because I knew what we had.
TRAPP: I don't think you can even do this right now Jazz, you was fucking with females on the side and I was cool with that. We was young and yea you still got a special place in my heart but that's not what I want. We've already talked about this so I don't understand why we're even discussing it right now.
JASMINE: I guess because my feelings really got the best of me after you left. No one really expected you to just up leave.
TRAPP: And I've apologize to you many times, I don't know what else to do.
JASMINE: Just forget I brought it up, I should be going anyway. I have to get Leo from my mother's house, so I guess i'll catch you around when I can.
TRAPP: I would like to see Leo if I can, I'm sure he would like to see me.
JASMINE: I mean that's fine, I just hate for him to get his hopes up thinking you're staying for good when in reality you're going back to ATL.
TRAPP: Now you're being difficult.
JASMINE: I have to go.
Jasmine grabs her purse off the table and walks out of the studio leaving Trapp alone, the scene fades to black.
September 17th, 2017
8:30 AM
Philadelphia, PA
D. Brickz House
Off-Camera
8:30 AM
Philadelphia, PA
D. Brickz House
Off-Camera
I couldn't sleep all fucking night, I got into some more social media beef with this nigga Dallas Reed. I didn't know what this dudes obsession was with me or my nigga but he was about to make me bring the savage out.
I get when niggas take breaks in relationships then usually one or both may step out and hook up with other people but this nigga was taking hooking up to another level.
I was already on my second blunt and third cigarette, I was about to go to the liquor store and get me a drink if that motherfucker was opened. I wanted to try and get some sleep but Brickz had his friends and some girls over so them niggas been up all night smoking weed and fucking so I could tell this was about to be a long day.
I get when niggas take breaks in relationships then usually one or both may step out and hook up with other people but this nigga was taking hooking up to another level.
I was already on my second blunt and third cigarette, I was about to go to the liquor store and get me a drink if that motherfucker was opened. I wanted to try and get some sleep but Brickz had his friends and some girls over so them niggas been up all night smoking weed and fucking so I could tell this was about to be a long day.
The scene opens up inside of D.Brickz house, Trapp is shown making a bowl of cereal, he hears a bang on the door and he rushes the door, his mother Keyshia is shown standing outside the door.
KEYSHIA: Can I come in?
TRAPP: Where have you been?
KEYSHIA: I’m grown and I don't think that's any of your business.
TRAPP: Out in these streets again huh? I called the phone I pay for but I see you don't know how to answer calls.
KEYSHIA: Not when I’m working, look I came over here because I need a few dollars and my accounts are empty right now.
Trapp sighs opening the door wider so his mom can walk in. Keyshia walks in and heads straight from the refrigerator.
TRAPP: I guess you haven't eaten.
KEYSHIA: That's not the point, I'm hungry, I will eat, grab this money and go do what I need to do.
TRAPP: And what is this you need to do?
KEYSHIA: I told you it was none of your business, I didn't walk in here asking why you're all over town parading your homosexuality. I knew I didn't like that boy, I knew it was something off about him and now he has turned my son into a faggot.
TRAPP: Wow.
Trapp walks into the room he was sleeping in and grabs his wallet. He reaches in it and pulls out a couple hundreds, he turns and walks back into the kitchen and hands the money to his mother.
TRAPP: You can go now.
KEYSHIA: Just know I’m very upset with you.
Keyshia grabs the whole box of cereal and walks out of the house leaving Trapp standing there disappointed as the scene fades to black.
KEYSHIA: Can I come in?
TRAPP: Where have you been?
KEYSHIA: I’m grown and I don't think that's any of your business.
TRAPP: Out in these streets again huh? I called the phone I pay for but I see you don't know how to answer calls.
KEYSHIA: Not when I’m working, look I came over here because I need a few dollars and my accounts are empty right now.
Trapp sighs opening the door wider so his mom can walk in. Keyshia walks in and heads straight from the refrigerator.
TRAPP: I guess you haven't eaten.
KEYSHIA: That's not the point, I'm hungry, I will eat, grab this money and go do what I need to do.
TRAPP: And what is this you need to do?
KEYSHIA: I told you it was none of your business, I didn't walk in here asking why you're all over town parading your homosexuality. I knew I didn't like that boy, I knew it was something off about him and now he has turned my son into a faggot.
TRAPP: Wow.
Trapp walks into the room he was sleeping in and grabs his wallet. He reaches in it and pulls out a couple hundreds, he turns and walks back into the kitchen and hands the money to his mother.
TRAPP: You can go now.
KEYSHIA: Just know I’m very upset with you.
Keyshia grabs the whole box of cereal and walks out of the house leaving Trapp standing there disappointed as the scene fades to black.
September 17th, 2017
10:10 pm
Philadelphia, PA
Philadelphia Airport
On-Camera
10:10 pm
Philadelphia, PA
Philadelphia Airport
On-Camera
It was time to get back to Atlanta, I had a couple business meetings the next few days and Jalen was getting restless with me being away too long. We already had issues in the relationship and I wasn't trying to cause anymore. That shit with my mother was really bugging the fuck out of me.
I guess she was having an off day.
I just hate how I had these on and off days with her, one day she be good and then the next she was a totally different person. Sitting in this airport I was thinking about a lot of shit, my life, my career and whatever else I had going on. I wanted to make a better life for myself, I wanted to leave this trap shit alone.
And more importantly I wanted to help my mother.
I guess she was having an off day.
I just hate how I had these on and off days with her, one day she be good and then the next she was a totally different person. Sitting in this airport I was thinking about a lot of shit, my life, my career and whatever else I had going on. I wanted to make a better life for myself, I wanted to leave this trap shit alone.
And more importantly I wanted to help my mother.
The scene opens inside the airport, Trapp is shown sitting in the waiting area holding his iPhone up to his face, he laughs as he video chats with Jalen.
JALEN: I just wish you would hurry up and get here, it's been 4 days and I miss you.
TRAPP: Oh you miss a nigga now? You see I'm at the airport, my flight leave at 12 so I guess i'll be in ATL by like 3.
JALEN: Well I can come get you from the airport and you can stay over at my place, I just miss you Trapp and I want to see you.
TRAPP: That's cool, but when I get there I’m not trying to argue about shit. We spend more time fighting then in love and that shit is draining.
JALEN: I agree that's why I'm trying a different approach. I know I fucked up by messing with Dallas but I don't want him.
TRAPP: Then you need to let him know that and tell him to stop coming for me before he get hurt. Little dude must be in his feelings but his feelings can get him trouble.
JALEN: I don't want to talk about it anymore, I just want you here.
TRAPP: Listen it was brought to my attention that I shouldn't do this show. I know I've already shot scenes with people but my family feels like it's too soon especially since I just came out.
JALEN: I think it's important for you to do it, you've experience so much in your life. I get the exposure might be too much for you right now but understand this will only help you out.
TRAPP: I just don't want to be involved with the messy shit, I'm still trill G and I don't rock out like that, it's bad enough this shit will have my life on blast but the rest of that gay shit needs to stop.
JALEN: I promise i'll handle the shit with Dallas, just trust me.
TRAPP: Yea aight, I’m about to board the plane so I’ll hit you when I touch down.
The two share they love before they disconnect the call and the scene fades to black.
JALEN: I just wish you would hurry up and get here, it's been 4 days and I miss you.
TRAPP: Oh you miss a nigga now? You see I'm at the airport, my flight leave at 12 so I guess i'll be in ATL by like 3.
JALEN: Well I can come get you from the airport and you can stay over at my place, I just miss you Trapp and I want to see you.
TRAPP: That's cool, but when I get there I’m not trying to argue about shit. We spend more time fighting then in love and that shit is draining.
JALEN: I agree that's why I'm trying a different approach. I know I fucked up by messing with Dallas but I don't want him.
TRAPP: Then you need to let him know that and tell him to stop coming for me before he get hurt. Little dude must be in his feelings but his feelings can get him trouble.
JALEN: I don't want to talk about it anymore, I just want you here.
TRAPP: Listen it was brought to my attention that I shouldn't do this show. I know I've already shot scenes with people but my family feels like it's too soon especially since I just came out.
JALEN: I think it's important for you to do it, you've experience so much in your life. I get the exposure might be too much for you right now but understand this will only help you out.
TRAPP: I just don't want to be involved with the messy shit, I'm still trill G and I don't rock out like that, it's bad enough this shit will have my life on blast but the rest of that gay shit needs to stop.
JALEN: I promise i'll handle the shit with Dallas, just trust me.
TRAPP: Yea aight, I’m about to board the plane so I’ll hit you when I touch down.
The two share they love before they disconnect the call and the scene fades to black.